Anyone who's not been following my blog or doesn't no me .. These passed few weeks I have lost my positive pants. Or as like to call it having zombie days I completely shut down and find things to distract myself from my feelings.
A mixture of failed ablations, set backs, not making it back to work (yet) I really will be well enough one day to do a shift, the inability to just be a mum to kian and get out and enjoy life, even that little glass of wine at the weekends because wine, antibiotics and painkillers apparently don't go well these are all just contributing factors to losing my positive pants.
Everyone is human and everyone has those off days (zombie days) , those days when things don't go right at work, our health suffers, shit really hits the fan at home, relationships go downhill the kids stress you out, your hair doesn't sit right or the jeans don't fit you anymore, and life just feels pretty shit however big or small the dilemma it's still a dilemma.
Because I have been having such a blue spell, yeah things are rubbish at the moment, spending the whole of last week back and forth to see my cardiologist .. Yep after me moaning he turned up at the pacemaker clinic to see me himself so things weren't really all that bad, more antibiotics and bloods to determine how bad the infection is and wither my pacemaker needs to come out quickly or if it can wait a little .... Because guess what another thing to add into my blue spell I have kian to look after and it's not just as simple as being admitted to hospital and getting it out, Dougie works, parents work and are on holiday so really I can't take a baby with me to get the pacemaker out could You imagine not to mention the recovery after, also finding out I'm allergic to nickel ... After having a whole 63 patches strapped to my back and been unable to wash for the entire week that's enough to make anyone blue or in my case that week red because urg being allergic to nickel left me with a lovely red patch, which still doesn't explain my hands been badly broke out (dermatitis ) the dermatologist put it down to 'typical mum hands' them being washed to much or simply just being so stressed out or good old hormones do they always blame hormones when they don't know ? I guess again it's The unknowing and everything being so unpredictable with my heart till I see my cardiologist Friday but having these blue spells or zombie days makes you appreciate the little things in life and these small things have helped me on my quest to find my positive pants so today's post is all about those little things , And maybe you need some help finding some positive pants to.
Yep say what,!!!!! for anyone following me on Instagram my feed is constantly filled with lush bath bombs because I am madly obsessed and since friends and family know me so well christmas and birthdays are always filled with boxes of bath bombs
There is no better way to de stress than running some lovely warm water and when I say warm I mean just enough so am not cold hot water and my ticker just don't agree at all, lush bath bombs are just the best, they smell amazing make the water look so lovely and leave your skin feeling brilliant. Frozen and sex Bomb are my favourites and I even treat Kian to the lovely Ickle baby bot bath bomb ,the bubble bars are fantastic too they make so many bubbles and who doesn't love bubbles, Light your candles because candles make the atmosphere that bit more relaxing, finally strip off and relax allow time to sit and enjoy I like reading but even some music anything that floats your boat the way it looks and feels will just make you feel that little bit better. And don't forget heart spoonie's taking some water in with you really does help to control the ticker
Cuddle your pets.
This one is so true I have a cat called Tinkerbell who was a rescue cat and I have had her for 5 years. It's shocking we actually don't know her age but she's a Norwegian Forrest cat they say pets are like there owners and this couldn't be more true when we first got her and took her to the vets they checked her heart because yep you guessed it these type of cats end up with heart problems When me and Dougie went looking for a cat I thought omg it's so hard to pick when there's so many looking for a home how can I possibly pick, but as soon as I spotted her I wanted her, she's big fluffy and playful, and to pick that one cat who could end up having heart problem I thought was crazy, everything happens for a reason why was I so drawing to her ? , was this the reason because she could end up with heart problems to , granted sometimes our fur babies don't want to be cuddled and this makes the situation that little bit more difficult and there's been times when I have held Tinkerbell's huge fluffy body next to mine and and she just struggles free even trying to bribe her with cat treats were she will go off and do her own thing but thankful as a whole pets are game for some love.on days i feel blue Tinkerbell just gives a good sense of well being with her tickly whiskers and lovely purr.
A disco nap
I cannot believe I am saying this but it's quite important to find your positive pants without sleep everything seems so much worse when I don't get sleep I'm honestly a nightmare, the worlds going to end nightmare were everything and anything just makes me want to cry, they are essential to feel that little bit better and to recharge your batteries so grab your favourite throw relax and shut your eyes on the sofa allow it if your body is asking for it ,trust me when sleeping at all is an issue you'd give anything for a nap i have forgot what a nap is being a mum but if I ever do get
half an hour 5 minutes then that's the first thing I do.
Make time for your best friend when your having a bad day, life gets busy and things get in the way and there will be times when you don't see each other at the drop of a hat but do you know what don't assume there to busy reach out anyway, if your able to meet for some lunch or a cuppa and a chat at short notice than fab if not its okay texting remember this person earned the title bestie for a reason don't be afraid to rope them into your mission of finding your positive pants.
Ok if your reading this post and thinking I haven't got time your already defeated and you may never find your positive pants again you do have time sometimes you just have to create it make way for you your just as important as the house been tidy dinner being on the table, in my case Kian making it to toddler group, that last important email, can all wait grab a nice face mask or some nail polish I mean how can you feel ur ultimate best if you don't look it right ? I love getting my eyebrows waxed another thing I am obsessed with and a huge pet hate of mine is messy unshaped eyebrows I would happily have hairy legs because it's winter who sees them anyway or in my case when I have ended up in hospital I feel my face going red thinking please don't look at the state of my legs but it's a huge no to messy eyebrows so this week I treated myself booked an appointment and went and got them done instead of doing them myself, just really take some uninterrupted girly me time. Trust me it works.
When I say time out I mean time out turn your phone off switch off social media stay in your own zone free yourself of others who want your time even if it's for half an hour in this time everything can wait your not a mother girlfriend or a wife you are you read a chapter of your book and I picked up , since it was Valentine's Day (no one ever has sex on a Tuesday ) I am huge sucker for romantic love stories and this book had me in fits of laughter from page 1 crap a cuppa or a hot chocolate read your favourite blog or catch up on that recorded program you fancied watching, cake and chocolate also help so allow yourself a nice treat.
Get out the house
Sometimes just been stuck in really frustrates me, the house feels a mess your sick of looking at the same walls a tempered toddler climbing and jumping on everything in sight I constantly feel like am saying no to him were he shakes his head and does it again anyway, getting out works wonders, take a walk to the park sit on the bench and just watch the world go by it really does just lift and boast your mood and makes you forget for that few minutes I go in my own little world and always come home abit more happier and positive.
Don't forget the biggest one is to smile and laugh, smiling and laughing is the key to finding your positive pants put on a comedy anything that makes you laugh I always smile looking at my wedding pictures remembering how beautiful that day was and how happy I was on that lovely summers day Scotland's always full of rain enough to make anyone blue but that day was full of sunshine I really felt like a princess , or pictures when Kian was born again I had such a rubbish crap time being induced 3 times 3 weeks early because of my heart and health but that day he was born it was all lifted and just a distant memory in the back of my mind because I had my beautiful boy and looking back things do get better, there's always something positive out there sometimes you just have to search that little bit harder to find it on your mission to find your positive pants, life really isn't all that bad. So kiss goodbye to those zombie days and try out some of my tips and find your positive pants and get your mojo back.
What do you do to feel better ??